Update: My girlfriend outed me to my family
Your comments have been overwhelming but I'm taking them to heart. I appreciate the stories you've shared with me, they are what helped the most. I told someone this in a DM but if it wasn't for the personal experiences that were shared with me....... I think I would have stayed.
It was really hard not to argue against the advice I was initially receiving. I can't explain why exactly I felt this strong compulsion to go on the defensive, but I am starting to realize my perception is very distorted. It's something I'm still struggling with a lot and it feels like I need constant reminders (reality-checks?) to hold on to the understanding i've gained.
Because there is a lot of concern being expressed, I just wanted to come on and share that I am okay, don't worry about me.
I am trying to come up with an exit strategy but it's complicated.
I mostly just wanted to reassure you and thank you.