i feel like everyone’s lying to me

i went home for thanksgiving break and i just gave in to every mental hunger urge i had. i feel awful now and i know ive gained a lot of weight. during break though, i kept on asking my family members if they thought i was eating too much for someone my age and they said no, but i feel like from an objective standpoint i was definitely going way way way too overboard and i wish they would’ve stopped me. especially since i am pretty sure i was eating more than everyone else in my family combined :( my parents also say they don’t see the weight i’ve gained but i can see it so clearly?? it just feels like everyone’s lying to me and it feels so frustrating. seeing myself now, i regret going home, i wish i just stuck with restriction.