Anxiety since 18 Years

I have anxiety since 16 now 34 , I always thought these are craving which i used to control using vapes , Nicotine patch. Now i have anxiety all day , Panic attack that i have been living my life completely wrong. Some how my anxiety mode managed to secure wealth , But i have 0 close relationship. Every human feel same to me.

I have now started talking with therapist to realise i have crazy amount of childhood trauma which i never delt with. I have started self Love , Started focusing on my health. Hopefully i can enjoy Life again like normal people.

Thanks for reading