any advice to feel better? /srs

I don't have anyone to talk to currently. My family wasn't rooting for me during this entire process, we don't have any money, the schools I did get into are too expensive, and I'm honestly just not happy. Can't remember ever being as excited as I was for admissions, thinking of all my sacrifices (no friends, poor health, working all the time, jealous relatives) that would finally amount to something. I'm so tired of making the best out of my cards. Just once, I genuinely felt excited. My curiosity and love for school is gone. College feels just like highschool, middle school, work, everything... in that it's obligatory rather than our of true passion. I don't want to throw my life away because I know there's more to it than this. But I'm kind of done if I'm being humanly honest.