Feeling pretty sorry for myself.

I’m a very negative person. I complain a lot, get overstimulated easy and I’m mean. Even my spouse has called me miserable. I want so bad to be the happy go lucky genuinely kind person, but it feels so fake 😭 I also recently found out I might have cancer so I have to get surgery soon.

Am I really going to die being a miserable person???

I put a picture of someone who loves me unconditionally.