Do bpd ex’s take accountability for their actions or know they hurt you?

I recently helped my ex move her things out of my house and I stood up for myself because the whole relationship ending got the blame on me, she begged me to change for months. In my mind I was a pretty good boyfriend and put up with a lot of shit.

I stood up and mentioned all the times she physically abused me, sometimes happened when we weren’t even arguing she would be mad at something else and I’d get a punch to the face in an alcoholic rage or spat on the back of the head, sometimes it would happen even during in argument.

She just said I only did them things because you got me to that anger and wouldn’t stop. I didn’t even bother mentioning the emotional abuse, controlling what I could wear sometimes or how my hair should be cut, what girls to talk to and the jealously also the constant accusations of me cheating on her all the time.

I find it difficult because surely she will feel guilt or sorry one day for putting me through pain?

Basically put the blame on me and never took into account what I did for her or what she did to me.