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Which teachers should I follow in std 10 like youtube se for each subject I'm an extremely slow learner and 9th main I have not studied anything like anything i passed through grace marks i haven't joined any coching nor was taking any tuition I have total attendance of 20% aur 8th main I was sick so i haven't studied anything in 8th as well i straight up disappeared for 6 months in 8 and almost a year in 9th ( expect for 9 ke exams aur 8 main nahi diya exam) I have been q below average student my whole life