Can I really not be gay and have a relationship with God? Does he really think it's wrong?

I'll be honest. I was born and raised Lutheran but have since strayed from my faith. I haven't followed any religion or have been religious in more than a decade. I am trying to find my path with God again but it's a journey. I think the only thing I'm really struggling with is homosexuality in terms of what the Bible says about it. I have struggled with my faith due to this for a very long time. I tried for so long not to think about the same sex in that way but I have learned that it is apart of who I am and I couldn't do nothing to change that no matter how hard I tried. Does God really say it's wrong? And if so, will I really not be able to enter the kingdom of heaven if I don't repent for it? I want to be able to marry someone who I really love one day and I don't think I can live that way if I'm constantly thinking that I'm sinning. What does God actually say about this in the Bible and how do we in the LGBTQ justify this? Can someone of faith help me?