Christian wife

So for some context I f22, grew up in church and my parents got a divorce cause my dad was pastor who ended up cheating on my mom and I’ve been trying to grow my relationship with god recently and when I think about love and me being a hopeless romantic and see other Christians talk about marriage I don’t know if is what I want even though I know I wanna end up with someone. Am I wrong for not liking the idea of being a Christian wife?

Submitting to my husband and having to listen to everything he says sounds like an annoyance, I don’t want to be someone’s stay at home housewife who they criticize about my personality and try and change me to fit their mold, I’m strongly against having any kids, Christian men I meet have an issue with feminism and that’s very important to me, and I’m also Alternative and like to go to diy shows and concerts and dress alternative and most Christian men I meet aren’t like that and I need someone to match the way I dress and am.