I’ve Always Wanted a Pretty Girlfriend—How Do I Stop Caring So Much? (Please don’t judge)

Since I was a kid, I’ve always dreamed of having a really pretty girlfriend. It’s not just about dating—it feels like this deep-rooted desire that I can’t shake. Now, at 22, I’m realizing that this mindset is causing me a lot of stress and insecurity. I’m Asian, probably slightly below conventionally attractive, and losing my hair early, and it feels like I’ll never be able to attract the kind of girl I always imagined. But more than that, I don’t want to need this anymore. I don’t want my self-worth tied to this dream I had as a kid. How do you actually let go of a deep-rooted desire like this? How do you rewire your brain so it stops feeling like something you need?