I fantasize about my cisgender male celebrity crush having a pussy

I’ve been super scared to tell anyone because they might think I’m a freak but I have a crush on this one actor (cisgender male, name classified) and when I have sexual thoughts about him I fully imagine him having a vagina, he’s either getting fucked by me (AFAB, but imaginary me has a wiener) or a bunch of other guys and he’s getting absolutely pounded or like stuffed with vibrators or a wand on his clit or like a rope digging into the labia or something like that

Idk if it’s from my complicated gender dysphoria or if it’s just me being weird