is anyone else living a double life?

i’m a 22F who is basically living a double life. most people know me as a nice, sweet girl that is shy and stays out of trouble. every day that i work i get a lot of praise from my coworkers and higher ups. often times my coworkers boast about me and beg to have me work on the same assignment as them. my manager tells me and her peers that im a great worker who she can always count on. i work in healthcare and it means a lot to me when patients tell me that i’m amazing, make them feel relaxed and at ease in otherwise stressful situations, and commend me on my skills. my boyfriend and his family loves me and thinks of me as his smart, beautiful girlfriend that is independent, loving and can “cook and clean” that he will soon marry. my parents love bragging about me to just about anyone who will listen. from the outside looking in i’m the average 20 something year old that seems to have found my passion and is making all the right moves for a strong future.

however, no one knows that when i wake up in the morning i have one thing on my mind. satisfying the needs of my demanding clit. i try to appear as normal as possible in my day to day life, hoping no one can tell that i’m constantly distracted by the greedy feeling between my legs. hoping no one notices me squeezing my thighs together just to appease my pussy a little. hoping the drool from my tight hole didn’t leak all the way through my panties and is now visible through my scrub pants. constantly wondering if i can slip away into a bathroom to quickly run my finger up and down my puffy button. hoping that my boyfriend doesn’t wake up when i’m lying right next to him trying to stifle the moans that want to escape. hoping he never finds out about all the nastiness that i indulge in to get my slit messy and sticky. hoping no one notices the bags under my eyes from a long night of being high and scrolling through reddit posts while using my fingers to churn cream from the warm insides of my pussy. hoping that whenever family or friends call, they don’t hear the shakiness in my breathe and the wet, gushy sounds my pussy is making in the background. hoping my fingers don’t still smell like i’ve been digging in my cunt after i just flicked, stroked, and jerked my clit until it doubled in size. hoping no one in public saw the filthy porn i forgot to exit out of the night before or the depraved reddit messages i received from another desperate goonette. although it worries me that i might slip up one day, i think i do a pretty good job of keeping my two lives separate, because no one would ever guess that their diligent, kindhearted daughter/girlfriend/nurse spends hours melting her brain to mush by being a perverted, weak slave to her little pulsing clit.

so, tell me about how you’re able to maintain your double life.