Quitting

I’ve been pumping for 18 weeks and called it quits. Today was the last day I gave my baby the last of my breastmilk. I’ve always had a low supply and had to combo feed with formula so the transition is easy. But I’m feeling a way I can’t describe, sadness? Is it a hormone crash? Guilt? I don’t know. A major part of the reason I’m stopping is because I’ve been village of 1 while exclusively pumping. It’s been exhausting. I have no family help here, my husband works insane hours so I take care of baby 24/7. I think stopping pumping is going to allow me to be better rested and a better mom. I’m both excited and saddened