I give up.

I used to be a regular on this subreddit and other adjacent subreddits. However they started messing with my mental health, so I took an extended break.

I gave myself around a year to improve my life, get friends, maybe find a boyfriend, and have a semblance of a social life. I went out of my comfort zone. I started attending events. Despite my severe anxiety and introvertedness, I attempted to talked to people. I got into improving my appearance and having some fashion sense. I lost a lot of weight. However whenever I thought I had made a friend, I realized I put far more effort into the “friendship” than they did. I had three people I considered friends, which for me is a lot. One day I just stopped texting all of them and till date none have even bothered to check on me. On the dating side, guys still ignore me. Even when I tried to improve my looks, I was still ignored at bars and clubs. No guys even looked my way. Dating apps were not better.

Despite my efforts to lead a more interesting life, I think there’s just something about me that can’t be fixed. It’s like there’s an invisible barrier between me and other people. I just can’t be like them, no matter how much I try. There’s just something about being normal that my Brain isn’t able to process. It’s like most people went through a “Be normal” school that I was never able to attend.

I’ve accepted that it’s truly over, I’m going to be a friendless virgin forever. I first made this account in late 2020, it’s now 2025. Sorry to be a negative Nancy, but I’ll always be inferior to normal women.

This will probably be my last day posting on this reddit account. I give up. Thanks for reading.