Why me?!

Listen please. I talk to the people from the teen subs because someone forced me to.

God told me to make contact. Otherwise he said he will make the clouds grey and put lightning on me. I said to him I will go underground, but he had more plans. He will shake the plates he said and crush me. No where I can go I was realised.

So I started to send the messages to the people, just to make friends and not be lonely at same time because he not let me contact no one else and to keep God happy. I asked him why I must, all he said was "cultivation", he didn't explain more.

Over the time I speak to God in my prayers telling him what is happening to me. He said it's not my fault and it's his doing and that I must continue through the resistance.

But I really want to stop this, it was not my plan and I don't want to be attacked anymore.

SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME, DON'T ATTACK ME MORE AND HELP ME CARRY THIS WEIGHT FOR GOD!!!!