Really really frustrated and on the verge of losing it 😞

I got diagnosed with GD a few weeks ago, got prescribed the lancets and test strip. I was doing alot of trial and error and not just testing meals but also testing snacks, retesting to make sure numbers are accurate. I used up my lancet and strips quickly and I wanted to refill, the insurance didn’t allow, so I call up my doctor if she can rewrite a new prescription with different dosage to get the insurance to pay and she’s brushed me off and said insurance won’t pay more than 4 times a day. Fine, i paid out of pocket till I can refill my prescription.

Secondly, my doctor wants to put me on metformin and I told her I prefer insulin. She’s like I have to try metformin first before insulin for my mildly elevated fasting numbers. I don’t want metformin, just give me insulin I let her everyone around me was taking that during their pregnancy and I’ll be comfortable with that. I don’t know what’s the problem? I’m already stressed enough about needing medications.

Is it because it’s going to cost the insurance more to pay for insulin than metformin? It’s not like it’s coming out of their pocket.

Mind you she never replies to mychart message only when I come in for my 2 week appointments and I’m worried about my care.