Trauma

Is it just me or does anyone else have trauma from like a past relationship yenye imekataa kuenda kabisa? For instance I was in a talking stage last year with this guy and he would like ghost ata upto 2 weeks, I call him hashiki, when we meet he calls me all the nice names nini nini, after that he ghosts for another one month😭🤣. Then the other one just ghosted out of the blue and we never spoke again.

So now, I’m talking to this guy, if he doesn’t reply to me maybe coz both us are at work, nishamake peace with him not texting me again and I just sit there. In as much as he communicates that he’s busy with work and he calls me every single day, I just can’t help but overthink. What if he doesn’t call me back again? What if he doesn’t talk to me again? Like how do I make these thoughts go away mahn😭😭

I love him lakini sasa what if he too ghosts me? I overthink everything. I get so anxious when we’re not talking. I hate this feeling aki arghhh