I can't stop saying why.

This is on mobile, so sorry in advanced for any mess up.

I'm a freshman, I go to a Christian private school, I'm raised by conservative Christian parents. I have a huge crush on a guy at school, though. I told my parents that I felt uncomfortable when they say homophobic things just now, and they say I'm being twisted by the media. My self esteem has gone extremely low when I realized I'm bi, and it's not helping that my parents would think I would be living a "bad life" if I were to be with another guy.

That's the shortened down version. There's a lot of other factors that are upsetting me, but I don't feel comfortable stating all of them. I've been sitting in my room, just crying and sobbing. I kept asking god why wouldn't he make us all the same?

I just... Wanted to get this off of my chest... My parents won't be supportive of me... I feel so torn apart...