Okay so advice?

Hey so yesterday I had a bad trip and feel I learnt a lot from it although it was horrible I could see the beauty in it it was the worst and best experience of my life I saw wonderful things and horrible things the trip changed me and I think it will end up making me a better person but how do I get over the trauma of my bad trip when I shut my eyes even to blink I see all the fucked up shit I saw? (1800ug trip) - Ik the dose is high but that’s the dose I do everytime due to my naturally high tolerance