Heartbroken and confused

Had my 12 week scan today at 13+2. Was shocked to find out there was no heartbeat and we had lost the baby. I’d had no symptoms and a scan at 7 weeks when a heartbeat was found.

I’m now having to process everything but also decide the management. Natural, tablet in hospital or surgery.

I know I’m still in denial, but part of me wants the natural way in case they were wrong. Part of me wants the hospital management to in a way get this out of the way and move on.

Did anyone else feel lost and confused like this?

EDIT: update- thank you everyone for your kind comments. They really helped to make a decision and to not feel as alone. I’m booked in for D&C tomorrow. My body still hasn’t realised after what will apparently be about 4 weeks since the baby’s heart stopped, so for me it felt best to in a horrible way, just get it done with.