Would’ve had my baby this month.

I went through a miscarriage at the start of this year, and was due this month. My niece was also pregnant alongside me and shes just had her baby. Am i wrong to feel so broken about it? I want to be happy for her, and go see my great niece but i don’t think i can bring myself to do it without feeling envious and somewhat jealous. All the pictures of her newborn have flooded my facebook and i cant help but feel so upset. I feel annoyed with myself that im so angry that she got to have her baby and im stuck still grieving over what couldve been.

I want to be there for her, but i dont know how without breaking down everytime the baby is mentioned or people show me a picture. I guess this feeling that i keep having is me yearning for my baby, but unfortunately I cant have them and its so not fair.