I wasn’t ready for a baby.

I wanted a baby so bad. I felt I was ready. I made my husband wait until I felt ready. Now my baby is 11 days old, severely underweight. I’ve tried breastfeeding. I endured the pain because I thought baby was getting enough to eat. Learned today she is still not gaining weight doctor said to bottle feed and I can’t even get her to do that. I didn’t know it was going to be this hard. I wasn’t ready and now I can’t turn back.