3yit and I need help

Every night , the same trauma resurfaces in my head , kantfkr kolshi , ou makan9drsh nen3ss , and it's not just my brain ,m'y whole body starts reacting, every night my hands start shaking and my head hurts , I hyperventilate and can't help but cry and vomit , I can't afford therapy at the moment, and lately it has become so intense I can't even sleep ou do mtfi , and I do anything to distract myself but i end up sleep deprived and sick AShno adir bash manb9ash ntfkr , 3yit