I'm terrified of people now...

Hi girls. So I've been watching a lot of videos of Trump talking about the executive orders, trans related stuff and other things. I knew things would get bad for us, but actually looking and seeing all the comments in the videos that were extremely hateful of trans people really slapped me in the face about the reality of our situation. People are VERY hateful about us and more vocal about it now. Seeing how hateful has really scared me.

I went out today to a store to pick up a few things. For context, I've presented feminine and have been doing things to feminize my appearance for over a year (growing my hair out, laser hair, eyebrow shaping, etc). My face is still pretty masculine though so it's easy to see me and know I'm trans. I've never felt endangered or anything in public, until today.

Now nothing actually happened to me, but genuinely for the first time since I've made my appearance way more feminine, I've felt genuine FEAR just being around people and being seen by them... Everytime I passed by someone, or someone even looked my way, I felt terrified and scared for my life. I'm scared of people and what they might do to me for being trans. I've never felt fear like this in my life before.

Even though I was in a public area in broad daylight, from when I left my place to getting back home, I felt constantly like my life was in danger. I was terrified of being attacked and killed at any point. And I knew it was likely that if I was attacked by someone, no one would come to help me because I'm trans. People would just look the other way, or even worse, record it or even join in on attacking me. When this came to mind it only made me more afraid. I pretty much rushed shopping, got the stuff I needed, paid and got out ASAP.

I hate being outside in public now. I honestly want to just hide in my home and never come back out :(