To E or not to E

I really don't want boobs but I no longer want fat to primarily go to my stomach as my body changes (21). I want fat to start going to my thighs more than anything else. But if I take estrogen, which I genuinely feel like could open me up emotionally finally, I'm scared of having boobs. I don't want boobs. But there's so many other things that could be had with it.

I don't know what to do. I need help.