Exhausted

Just a rant I guess? We have a two month old. I am so freaking tired Jesus Christ please send help. Oh also breast is best? lol then why is it SO FUCKING HARD. I hate pumping and am slowly stopping. Please tell me I will feel a little better after stopping pumping?! Dear god there is not enough caffeine in the world. I’ve been crying off and on all day and it’s not even noon. Also my brain is mush and my memory is horrible. Wondering if I will ever sleep again.

Update: thank you so much everyone for the support and solidarity. Definitely going to stop pumping as I am under supplying and hoping to improve my mental health. Seriously thank you again.