Anyone else suffer from nightmare disorder? Losing hope

I’ve suffered from this for as long as I can remember (so around 4 years of age), and I’m exhausted. I’ve talked to so many doctors and psychiatrists but nothing he’s helped. I’ve tried prazosin. I take daily anxiety and depression meds and that’s all well handled. But then every single night I have the most vivid and horrific nightmares you can imagine. It also feels like I experience every minute of it. So I wake up exhausted. I go through phases of just NOT sleeping because I’d rather stay up all night than experience the nightmares. Can anyone else commiserate??? I feel like a freak show.

Btw my mental health is fine, please don’t worry lol! Just this struggle with damn nightmares.