It’s so fucking over.

I feel like absolutely shit. I came into this semester with already a crazy low GPA (below 2.5) and now they’re absolutely going to put me on academic probation. I’ll be lucky to get an A or B in one class, but I definitely failed 2k2 and will probably have D’s in my other classes. I can honestly say I worked my fucking ass off this semester, and for what? I’ll have to take multiple summer classes to even consider graduating on time, which means I won’t be able to get an internship for my 3rd summer break (not that my grades would help anyway). I was lucky to be able to intern the previous 2 summers. I’m afraid now I won’t be able to make it in the industry. I just want a job that can support me and my father. I’m in my 3rd year of computer engineering but I am probably the dumbest person in that whole major. I feel so scared for the future and ashamed of myself. I really thought if I put my all I could salvage my GPA, but no matter how much I go to libraries to study or sit in my room working it’ll be the same result. I wish I was smarter and could focus better. I thought the therapy and medication was helping, but I’m preforming even worse than before. I just really hate myself right now. Thank you for listening, I just needed a place to vent. I will take down this post if this is not appropriate to post.