Feel like a failure as a FTM and wife

For the most part I have a supportive husband. I always wanted to stay home with my future kids. However I am 8 weeks pp (bub is 4 weeks adjusted) and I just feel like I suck as a mom and wife right now. The house isn’t really clean my meals aren’t really the best and not like how I used to cook. I feel like baby is always upset and hasn’t even smiled . I always wanted multiple kids too but I feel like that dream is a distant one and that I might not be cut out for this even though I want to be🥲