my dad killed himself on march 7 2021

i feel so miserable until now. at the age of 38 he killed himself, i found him. the last memory i have of him is the night before he hung himself. he was looking at me while i was watching a show, just staring at me blankly, without uttering a word. then he went to his room to sleep.

i feel so empty until now. he won’t be there for when i get married, for when i’m successful, and for the rest of my life. i miss him and sometimes i miss him too much where it gets to the point that i want to kill myself because life is meaningless without my bestfriend, my father, the best man in my life.