Postpartum depression

I just gave birth 9 days ago, but suddenly i feel hopeless,terrible, and a bad mother/partner, recently i feel like my mind saying i should hang myself or just cut my wrist, i don’t know what to do about it, I’m always sad and crying anxious and I’m always mad with small things even tho it’s just a simple thing what should i do? Im scared because maybe one day i didn’t realize i had done it.

I love my baby and my partner i don’t wanna die but my mind want it and my body just wanna do it.