i hate my mother

I will never ever forgive my mother for fucking up my life.

I hate her so much that all my blood and all my cells are filled with rage and hatred. Thinking about suicide every day. Just don't want to leave my cat alone.

my mother is the only reason I have bpd. everything that has ever happened to me is her fault. this is going to kill me. im scared, feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel...