current political issues are intensifying my issues

i dont really care if you call me weak or anything because i already know i am so save your efforts :3

i have been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for nearly a decade and i only turned 20 recently. this shithole of a world is just worsening it. every time i read the news hopelessness takes a big bite out of my flesh and the only way to soothe my despair is escapism. does anyone else feel like this? like damn everyone seems to only acknowledge everything going on instead of being consumed by it. and they tell me to "not let it get to me" or say "it is what it is" like hello?? why are they so content? how can they just ignore it all?