Why do I feel so insecure among my friends?

Hi, I used to have a pretty solid foundation with my close group of four friends. We were close as close could get, our families knew each other, we spent holidays together, all that.

Then I went to university and they went on and got jobs. Right now, i’m broke, living with my parents and finishing up my degree while they’re earning GREAT money doing the things they love even without a formal education. They’re also in relationships with incredible and intelligent people our age who seem to have accomplished so much more than I have.

I am so insecure around them that I always just end up breaking down when I’m chatting or talking to them and I disappear from convos. I’ve flaked out on many hang outs because I just dreaded the idea that i’m the least accomplished, sexless and least attractive.

I just want to be able to enjoy spending time with my friends again. And not be in this loop of self pity. :(