I want to kill myself.

Me 34(M) Has been going through a very shit time, First off my wife I had for 7 years 32(F) cheated on me with another man. My mum 78(F) died this week after coming back from work and seeing her dead not breathing in her bed, I lost almost everything. My house, and my job, A few years prior I was doing very good in life had a house with 2 kids and a wife had a very well paying job, but after she cheated on me I broke up and she took the kids with her, I have no desire to live on this earth anymore and theres almost no more joy in my life left.

UPDATE 1: Yes, I didn’t kill myself, My live is slowly getting better day by day, I finally get to see my kids more now, And thank you all for your support full comments, I finally applied for another well paying job, Even though I’m at one of my lowest points of life. I finally got me a apartment to stay at while I start to save up for a house, Once again thank you all for your support.❤️ 24/2/25

UPDATE 2: I just had my first couple of therapy sessions, I planned my mothers funeral which was so fucking painful to do but you know? my life is slowly coming back together. While I wasn‘t on reddit for 3 days or something I was having some fun out with my family and everything on the beach but still leaves a hole in my life, My dad has just been diagnosed with cancer.. I‘m starting to back to the bottom.💔27/2/25