My mom cares more about public opinión than my wellbeing...

I am currently in family therapy and in one of the sessions where we were talking about my SA and how it affected us both and our relationship, we discovered that I needed some closure. This meant that I would have to talk to a family member (from my mom's side) to tell her what happened. My mom ended up confessing that she would much rather keep the family in peace and still have a relationship with them, then be with me and support me when I do talk to that aunt. Since then, I haven't been able to calm my anxiety, I feel like shit every day (I have been in a state of derealization that is driving me crazy). Since my dad left when I was 3 I have always put my mom's needs and feelings before mine, sadly all I have learned during these sessions is that I am not the daughter she wants, that I am always wrong and that she literally can't name 1 good thing about me. It is super confusing because she hasn't stopped helping me pay for uni, she still helps me buy new clothes for my new job, but yet again she won't hesitate to tall me how mean or inconsiderate I am. I am honestly exhausted, I wanted to better our relationship, I am the one who started with the idea of family therapy, but It has become one of the worst decisions of my life. (I appologize for any mistakes englis is my second lenguage)

I wonder if this has ever happened to anyone, is it normal for single mothers to hate thir childern? Am I actually the worst like she says?