vent (again)

I'm incredibly feeling sad and miserable,I never thought that I'd want to it this much,ever since I was a kid I had this loneliness following me,I was always gaslighting myself that I'm not completely "alone" but i was in fact alone all alone,i loathe myself and curse the day I was conceived into this shithole of reality,I hope all the people who fucked me over get what's coming for them