Does abuse make women ugly?

Or can it rather? I feel like the way he tried to make me believe I was for years now and it seems my life reflects that after the abuse now when it didn't before. I'm low self esteem and confidence, I have none left. I cry out of nowhere a lot now. Wear the same outfits frequently, no makeup, hair undone, sometimes nails are done but I let them go for a few weeks. I don't get complimented anymore. Is there ways to fix this? Did anyone else experience this? The stress fucked with me and made me skinny while he commented on how other women ACTUALLY had bodies when he stressed me to the point of starvation at times and lack of energy to work out like other women did to gain that body aside from plastic surgery he told me I shouldn't get but would send pics of women with it in a fight and ask me why I can't look like them? I've always been low confidence but at some point in my 20s I had it I feel like people just want me to be beaten down now and that's it or they're upset. He would always beg me to get my nails done and say I look better that way. It's expensive and even when I did all that and rarely did my hair and makeup I still didn't feel good with all the abuse. I just looked skinny going from work to abuse and don't have A LOT of time for it anyway. Usually exhausted from work. Is there a way out of this and back to how you atleast were before? This is depression. I'm stuck in the loop of it and I feel like I need to improve or level up again but it's hard with my current routine and feelings and everything. Depression even.