Anyone here can’t make eye contact AT ALL?!

I don’t know why. I just can’t look people in the eye when they talk or I talk. I find it so uncomfortable and so awkward. I will look at the drawings behind them, I will look out the window, the floor, the ceiling, their phone on the table, ANYWHERE BUT THEIR EYES when they are talking to me. I hate this about myself because it makes me seem so rude and like I’m not paying attention to them, but all I can manage is 1 sec of eye contact before I look away. I just get so overwhelmed when I look people in the eyes. Ugh.

I am comfortable and close with my family, but even when it comes to them I cannot make eye contact. Is anyone like this? Why am I like this??