Would it be inappropriate to change my middle name to Valencia?
Hi 👋🏼 Hopefully this is a good place to ask. I've seen this sort of question on r/namenerds with mixed opinions.
Background: My mother was very abusive and named me after an ancestor who suffered extreme abuse and my name means that I'm supposed to be docile and carry on my mother's legacy of abuse, and I hate that.
I've done a lot of work on myself to end the generational abuse and become mentally healthier since I have PTSD. I started searching for a name that meant "healthy" and found Valencia. According to my research, it means strong/healthy/vigorous/brave/valor, which to me is the opposite of my original middle name. It has its Roman origins from what is now Spain, where there is a city that was given that name after the bravery of the soldiers who fought for it. I love the name but I can't adopt it if I find out there's cultural context that would make it insensitive for me to do so. That would defeat the purpose/meaning anyway.
My concern is that I'm not sure if this name would be offensive to choose because I didn't grow up saturated in strong Latin culture, though it did have wonderful influences on my life as an American. My heritage is from all over Europe but with only a small percentage from Spain and Mexico. I worry that it's not enough to be acceptable or that I may be naive to its cultural significance. My grandmother spoke Spanish and I have always loved the language, especially since she was one of the only people who mediated for me and my mother before she passed away when I was 12 and it's sentimental to me. But it's not my native language. I live on the West Coast of the USA where Latin culture has contributed a lot to the culture of the country in general, especially in California where the Hispanic/Latino communities are large. All that said, the conversation around race in America can be very tense and I'm still learning what is considered appreciation vs appropriation, which is tough since the US is considered to be a melting pot... It's hard to know where I'm expected to separate my own culture from minority cultures when they blend so beautifully in some ways but are taken advantage of in others.
What do you think? Am I missing any context that should make me rethink my middle name choice?
Edit: Thank you to everyone who is giving input! I was aware that it's commonly used as a last name from a little online research, and it seems like that's the main caution being given here. Thankfully I don't think that would be a big deal here because it's uncommon to introduce yourself with your full name. Most people don't know each other's middle names here unless they are pretty close, like best friends, family, or romantic partners. Is it common to give your full name in your country? I'll keep that in mind if I ever get to visit 😊