Do you WANT to have autism?

I’ve recently came to the understanding that I have autism, now, I am not “professionally” diagnosed but “self-diagnosed”. Anyways, since finding this out I have obviously found thing after thing I do, that usually tends to be something of a autistic trait, and I’ve been bringing this up to my mom a lot because 1, I have no friends, and 2 because I need to explain these things to my parents. But this morning when I was explaining something I had learned about it, she said it just “seems like I just want autism” she says I just wanna find my identity in it, but in my mind, I’ve finally just figured out the missing puzzle piece I’ve been missing all my life it feels. Idk, she didn’t say it in a condescending way, but she is super religious so even if that’s what it is she thinks you can just pray and get it fixed