This is torture

There is no effing way i’m this unlucky and am going thru the 4 months regression at like what, not even 13 weeks?! She wakes up every 40 minutes and it is killing me. I can’t believe this can last for months, I genuinely don’t think I can’t handle functioning with no sleep. I can’t even suggest doing shifts as I exclusively nurse. I seriously want to cry my eyes out. I just don’t understand how and why sleep deprivation is such a big part of motherhood when I have to be in my damn right mind to care for this life, and obviously that’s impossible without sleep!!!!!!! So, so sad right now.