post concert depression

hi….. i came from NYC/Europe to see billie for the last 2 shows in LA and I genuinely have not stopped crying since leaving the venue. I had barricade (but slightly shitty view bc the security and camera was blocking my view half the time) and literally fought tooth and nail for it, so this meant a LOT to me, and I’m genuinely in a depression hole. I cannot fathom she’s a real person (though I saw her few times before) and it genuinely hit even harder (not soft) that she’s so huge and unattainable now and it truly pains me. anyways… that’s it. just wanted advice on how to deal with this or see how others who are experiencing the same are doing :’))