I am so lost.

I am engaged to my daughter’s dad. She’s 17 months old. And man is she in love with her dad…she’s always looking for him and saying dada. He’s an exceptional father AND human being. In the beginning, I was going to leave and he made a complete 180 after I told him I wasn’t in love with him.

And here I am, still not in love with him. I don’t want to have sex with him. At all, and we do not have sex.

I feel so evil. This would be easier if he was a shitty partner but he isn’t. He’s not my soulmate. I just feel that to be the truth.

Does anyone relate? Can anyone help?