I think my c diff is coming back :(

I first came down with c diff in early April of this year, and went on Vancomycin a little over a week after the symptoms started. The Vancomycin was 10 days, and 125mg, with 40 capsules. I was feeling great after I got started on them, and for a week or two after I finished my pills my stool looked normal, and I could eat normal things. I'd eat a lot of yogurt and oats with my diet, and I'd drink a lot of kombucha too, I really tried all I could to get my gut back to normal. But just a few minutes ago I went to the bathroom, feeling the same urgency to go that I felt while affected by c diff, and what do you know... my "stool" was just a drop of mucus of blood in it, just like my c diff stools. I can't even explain how upset I am right now. I wanted to think it was over. I'm still holding onto the hope that maybe it was a fluke of some sort. I've been so cautious and careful about washing my hands too, before each meal I eat I wash my hands for at least 20 seconds with warm water. This is just awful on top of having to deal with college midterms. I'm just so sick and tired of this, this feels like actual torture. I'm just really glad that there's other people out there who can understand this torture, thank you to all those who read this :)

Also sorry if bits of this don't make sense, I'm writing this while crying