~30 rejections, hope I'll make it till 2025

I've got rejected at ~30 jobs. i burst crying at my last interview and been told i won't find a job because I look mentally and physically ill. does it mean I'll never have a high paying job? will i stuck with parents forever? i feel hopeless.

6 years ago i was about to kms. i regret not doing it. my life keeps getting worse. i don't know how I'm going to survive this holidays (happy holidays btw) ate 2 boiled eggs with salt and 2 cookies with butter. also brewed tea with herbs and berries.