I hate this stupid phobia

I am currently at my dad’s house and, for some damn reason, it always gets bad at night when I’m at his house. And guess what time it is? That’s right, night time at my dad’s house.

I am trying to sleep but my brain keeps going “wait. What’s this feeling? let’s stay up later just in case.”

I can’t wait to go back to my mom’s house. At that house, it doesn’t get triggered as often.