Blergh

Just need somewhere to share. I've been visiting family in my home country, tomorrow I have a VERY long journey across the ocean and several trains back to where I now live. I just ate dinner with my family, I went in the kitchen and noticed the wrapper from the beef we just ate on the side. 4 days past the date on the packaging, stored in a less than ideal (but still cold) fridge.

Im in shut down right now. I'm also kind of angry. I cant cope with this right now. I had such a handle on my emet this week. I ate with my hands, ate at a buffet. I have to be at the airport in less than 12 hours and I want to cry. This house is part of my problem. We were so poor when I was a teen we ate so much out of date food, and honestly, yes we were fine but i felt so scared all the time that I was gonna get sick cause we were too poor to eat food that was in date.

I just want to be home with my partner right now. But i have to somehow find a way to cope with hours and hours of travel hoping i dont have food poisoning. And I dont shit my pants or barf the entire plane ride. I hate this. Why did this have to be tonight. God damnit.

That is all.