Any tips for living through abuse?
I’m being emotionally abused by my parents. I have been for my whole life, and I’m in my mid 20s now. I know that the solution is to leave, and I’m working on that right now, but it is going to take a while before I’m in the position to actually realistically leave. For now, I’m stuck with people who treat me like I’m an animal, or a broken toy. I have unhealthy coping mechanisms for this, such as blaming myself, and isolating myself from the world. I grew up isolated, neglected, without the social skills necessary to interact with other people. So it’s tough. I got diagnosed with ptsd, major depression, social anxiety, ocd, panic disorder, and probably some other things I forgot.
I got a neuropsych evaluation, and the doctor said I met the criteria for autism, but I’ve been through so much abuse and neglect that she couldn’t diagnose me, because she didn’t know if my traits were intrinsic or caused by abuse.
Does anyone have tips to make surviving through abuse more easy to bear? The only things I have going for me right now are that I have a partner, a support group for OCD bi-monthly, a therapist, and I’m an artist, and taking one college class per semester. I am too disabled to work and trying to get on disability. I’m not looking for info on how to escape, just tips on how to deal with the suffering, preferably from people who have been there. It feels very lonely to exist like this, and sometimes I feel like I must be the only one suffering through this, which makes the loneliness harder to bear.