Does anyone else struggle with the thought of losing their parents?

Today’s my mom’s birthday, and I’m so happy she’s here ,she is healthy and alive. Her and my dad are super healthy and live an amazing life.

But at least once a week, I spiral thinking about the fact that one day, she and my dad won’t be here anymore. I’m usually a happy person and full of life, but this thought just crushes me. I wouldn’t be able to live if they are not here anymore. I could be out walking or at a coffee shop, and suddenly, I start crying, feeling like time is slipping away too fast.

I don’t even know how to process emotions like this. How do you cope with something that feels so inevitable yet impossible to accept? Right now, I’m walking, and I can’t stop crying. How do you process emotions like this? What do I even tell my brain?